Sams Birthday

I wasn’t together with Sam any longer after my message. Yes, I was sad but the life is going on. I went to school and did something in me free time, but I missed him. I had really loved him…but as it seems he didn’t really love me. I don´t know what he wanted… the same as every man? I thought he was different than others but this thought wasn’t right how it looks like.
But then I was very late with my period and worried about being pregnant. Sam is the only one who comes into question of being a father so I decided to contact him and say it to him. I wrote him a message that it’s urgent to see him but it was his birthday.
I couldn’t care less; he had to know it now. He can’t just go away and leave me with the problems! So we met in the café and I told him what I wanted to tell him. Then we wanted to buy a pregnancy test but we hadn’t enough money. So I went home to get more money and he wanted to wait for me in the café.
HE WASN´T THERE WHEN I CAME BACK!!! This a******! He chickened out of this “challenge”. But I didn’t want to do this alone. There are two people who are responsible for this so we both should do it!
I walked home and spend the rest of the day in my room, thinking about my future.

Bye, Alicia