The last two points & thanks for reading :)

Ok, first I want to thank you for visiting my site and reading my blogs! This will be my last blog about my story with Sam and Roof because I think that there are just two questions you could aks yourself now. 1. What about your relationship with Sam? and 2. How does Sam looks like? I will answer these last questions now:

1. Sam and me we had sex again, the first time since Roof was born. It was after the day we spent in our small family of three. Sam went back to my´s to help me with Roof and stayed for dinner. Afterwards we slept together in the room of my brother and we needed a condom of my parents like at the first time. It was all fine and I felt well but then my mum came in. We didn´t know wether she was so angry about it. Sam is the father of my son, so where is the problem? Mum didn´t want us just to have sex because we have a child and I explained to her that we were only thinking of giving it a go for a while. But I was sad after this conversation. It´s not fair because Sam and me didn´t have the same chances to be together like everyone else.

... You can see how it is now. We aren´t together anymore. I´ve got a new boyfriend and he has got a new girlfriend.

2. Sorry, I never told you how Sam looks like. He is a good-looking, tall person. He has got straight dark hair and is often dressed like a skater. Sure, it is his hobby.
This is a photo of him.


Bye, Alicia :*

Another fight - chapter 18

It happend again. Sam and me we had another fight. He came to our house last evening when I hoped to get ten minutes to myself and knocked angry at the door of the bathroom. Yeah, I was already a bit nerved but then he said "I´ve got better things to look at than you." and this was the last thing I wanted to hear at this moment! Sam is already sleeping with another girl? Was it that what he wanted to tell me? I was really angry and shouted at him. I didn´t want that he will ever see Roof again if he is already seeing someone else. But then my mum heared of that and came up. She took us with her in the kitchen and we talked quietly. It turned out that Sam just came to talk about what he read in this report of the Prime Minister that 8 out of 10 young fathers loose touch with their child because he will never want that.

Yes, I really have to say sorry to Sam. This fight was mostly my fault but he shouldn´t had come so angry, too. I hope it will be our last big conflict!

Bye, Alicia

Sams cold - chapter 17

The first thing which surprised me was that Sams father came around and took his son and Roof for something to eat. Dave never came to see our son or even Sam.

Then Sam get a cold and he was coughing and sneezing half the night. He woke me up and picking Roof up with a cold is also not the best for a baby so we talked. It was difficult for me to say :"You could always go back to your old room." Sam always wanted that, especially now after our little fights, but never said it. I had to say it in the right way because it could sound like I would not like to have Sam in my room any longer what is the opposite of that what I really want. We decided that he goes back to his room till he has stopped coughing but I was sure that he would never come back. We will see how it will be in the future...

Bye, Alicia

Jason bloody Gerson - chapter 16

Why couldn´t this day be spared? Sam came from college and told me he had a fight. Ok what could be called a fight. Anyways, he fighted with Jason my ex-boyfriend. He sais Roof would be his child. Sam really disappointed me today. He said it would all fit in very well. He insinuated me that I was already pregnant when we had sex the first time and that I just use him for a father of my child. How Sam can think such a thing of me? I could just cry and pointing out the real facts. We met a year ago, Roof is three weeks old and unless i had an eleven-month pregnancy it can´t be Jason´s. This was logical but it was how little he trust in me what made me sad. I know that he doesn´t like to life in my room and it´s horrible that he had this fight with jason just to have a reason to go home to his mum. I told him all that and in the end he said sorry a lot and we hugged and kissed. That was our first row but it ended good fortunately.

Bye, Alicia

Sam moves in - chapter 15

Today I went home from hospital with Roof. Also Sam moved in. We are going to live together in my room; Roof, Sam and me. He came with his mum and Mark, who helped bringing some things of Sam in my room. I felt confident when it was done and we all sit together but Roof needed feeding and there where to many people around. I think my mum and Sams mum would like to stay but I sent them away. All exept for Sam. Now I really think this was the right decision to be alone with my new little family. Just Sam and me and our cute baby. I didn´t feel happy very often in the last nine month but in this minutes I felt really happy. I mean everything turned good, as much as you can say that. We started to live together and I survived the birth of our son.

Besides, Sam brought a poster of Tony Hawk with him. He didn´t wanted to put it up in my room but I thought about it. He is Sams idol and I know that Sam likes skating very much but how it will be in the future? Will he stop skating for me and Roof? I don´t know whether I want that. Maybe we will find a good way for him between son/family and his hobby skating. This is a photo of his poster:


Bye, Alicia